If you read my post on celebrating strengths, you already know I don’t believe we need to focus all of our attention and energy on our weaknesses. BUT all of us at least need to know what they are, and this week my weakness was glaringly apparent...
I am impatient.
I’m working on it, but…
I am impatient.
As I’m writing this, I’m waiting to get the official email that I was hired for a job that I already know I got. The powers that be congratulated me in person for booking the role but told me I couldn’t share it yet. This happens all the time in the business, but your girl is BOTHERED that I can’t share the news with my inner circle.
Can you see how crazy this is? I got the job, a good job, and I can’t even celebrate it with a good attitude because I want to share the news with my people NOW. Pure crazy.
This is the life I live. Atlanta traffic doesn’t bother me. Why? Because I schedule my travel around high traffic times at all costs. I go to restaurants around town that have great food but no hype, so I never wait in line. I structure my life, so things keep moving, and I never have to wait.
But God has a way of teaching me the lessons I don’t want to learn, and I think He finds it funny. Over the last couple years, before booking a job, I’ve had to wait for some reason or other. I’ve been hired for a job then the start date gets pushed back… a MONTH. I’ve been told I’m being seriously considered for a job and had to wait for weeks to just get a yes or no. To be honest, I deal with rejection better than I deal with the wait. Just put me out of my misery already! Did I get it or not? I’m ready to move on.
Obviously, I’m still working out the kinks, but I see a pattern.
I’m told to wait.
I get stressed out.
I get the news or the result.
I move on with my life.
I’m always fine when the wait is over, no matter the result. So, if waiting is a part of life, I think I need to remove the stress associated with waiting and repurpose that energy. Maybe I can make it a game. I can see how long I can wait without complaining! Or if I want to be productive, I can see what I can create between being told to wait and getting the result. Either way, I’m going to at least approach the next wait with a game plan, so I don’t keep falling into the same pattern of behavior.
Okay, now that I’ve told you what I need to work on and my plan of action, what’s your thing? What could you stand to see differently? What’s your weakness, and what’s your plan of action to be better the next time?
About me . . .
I'm Cyrah Hill. I'm a woman of faith, an actor and an everyday black girl.